wow!!!! i realise i've alot of unknown readers.. lol!!
anyway... just to clarify.. I'm not angry with my Godpa.. (because apprently EVERYONE thinks i am.. i also don't know why..)
Because if I am angry with him.. it'll make me such a materialistic monster that I AM NOT.. haha!
so yea.. please do not mistake the previous previous previous post I commented on the car and maid stuff...
It has nothing to do with this family regarding money.. you all should know Lele better than her being angry because of money??!! hahaha! (greatest joke ever..)
and regarding me not telling my parents all of these? don't worry...
they are my parents and they are the best ones any one alive can ever have.. because... I can tell them anything..
from friends to boyfriends, from bees to flies.. from family to school, from money to shit.. anything.. and even late night movies and clubbing and all.. dont worry too much.. =D they know.. EVERYTHING about me.. =D
because i love them, and they love me... they dont restrict me and they trust me.. so they'll know EVERYTHING...
they know everything because.. they know i've BRAINS and i love myself.. =D
so to ALL my family members.. dont worry.. there's still a part of me that loves you... haha.. or at least i'll still try.. =D
and to my Godpa.. please do not worry about the money and material stuffs.. i dont really care.. =D i still love you!!!
00:43
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
my family is not a family...
it feels like we're fighting wars everyday...
not my nuclear unit.. my extended unit..
war.... heart war? haha!
it is so taxing.. i think i'm already gonna have HBP soon.. lol!
12:01
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
including today.. i've 3 days to study 5.5 lectures for 2101, the entire 2216, entire soci which i haven even started and the tb is freaking thick and covered in ALOT of words..
but one happy motivation!
exams ends on next wednesday!!! =D
HAPPY!!!
and both of us are happy happy!! =D
13:16
Monday, April 13, 2009
all this time i was waSting hoping you would come around ive been giving out cHances every time and all you do is let me down and its takEn me this long baby but i figured you out and youre thinking well be fine again but not this time around
you dont have to Call -- anymore i wont pick up the phone this is the last -- straw dont wannA to hurt anymore and you caN tell me that youre sorry but i dont believe you baby like i did -- before you're not sorry. oh-h-h no. no. no.
youre looking so innocent i might believe you if i didnt know couldve loved you all my life if you Hadnt left me waiting in the cold And you got your share of secrets and im tired of being last to know and now youre asking me to listen cause its worked each time before
but you dont have to call -- anymore i wont pick up the phone this is the last -- straw dont want to hurt anymore and you can tell me that youre sorry but i dont believe you baby like i did -- before you're not sorry. no, no. oh-h-hh-hh. you're not sorry. no, no. oh-h-hh-hh.
you had me crawling for you honey and it neVer wouldve gonE away, no you used to shine so bright but i watched all of it fade
so You dont have to call -- anymOre i wont pick Up the phone this is the last -- straw theres nothing left to beg for and you can tell me that youre sorry but i dont believe you baby like i did -- before you're not sorry. no, no. oh-h-hh-hh. you're not sorry. no, no. oh-h-hh-hh. no, no, no, no. no, no, no, no
Give me a reason to fall in love Take my hand and let's dance Give me a reason to make me smile Cause I think I forgot how
I wanna fall asleep with you tonight I wanna know that I am safe when you hold me tight I wanna feel like I wanna feel forever
Girls need attention, and boys need us So let's make everybody glad That they have each other in each others arms Oh let's make everybody glad
I want you.
I wanna dream away with you tonight We can go anywhere you would like I wanna feel how I wanna feel forever
I want you
17:12
Monday, March 16, 2009
i had a weird dream..
parents already sold the car..
and my dream was..
they lied to me..
haha!!
no car no maid no cong no friends whom i thought were friends
loads of work exams coming sick
life suddenly suck.
16:16
Monday, February 23, 2009
ok... so... here's to the best memory we both ever had... other than korea...
we nearly.. erm... ended everything on friday night... but soon.. he popped up and asked me to go into my room.. he then went to talk to my parents and left the house... "??!!" yes.. i also dunno y...
he came back... den went to bathe and slept... so i didnt bother and followed him to bed...
at 630am in the morning, i woke up and felt he wasnt around me... "??!!" "toilet maybe... and i drifted back into la la land...
he soon came in, jumped on top of me.. planted a million kisses all around me and asked me to wake up for breakfast!!!
1. HE MADE BREAKFAST!!!
after eating his very nice breakfast.. that included french toast, bacon with chicken, sausages, salad...
we went into my room.. and I played treasure hunt!!!
2. a bottle of bubble bath (we finished mine in korea, this is for japan!) 3. a bouquet of soft-toy roses.. it was so cute i loved it!!! 4. a slingbag... full of very cute pink strawberries with a side pocket for me to keep my hp so tat it'll nv disappear again.. 5. a box of balderdash.. a game tat's for all my guests to play during chalet!! 6.... PRAWNING!!!!! (hahahaha!!! our virgin trip to prawning!!)
so we headed to NUS, to hand in his documents.. had a little tiff and went to find jun wei cuz he landed bad and fractured his leg...
den we went PRAWNING!!! i caught a prawn!!! but we had to leave soon after because... number 9 was a matinee!!! "what the butler saw.."
7. a hp strap that has a heart with our neoprint from korea!!! =D 8. a personalised cashcard with our photo and my name!!! 9. tickets to what the butler saw...
and while i was checking the street directory how to go home from bishan (prawning) to change for the play... he asked me to turn to look into the passenger seat and lying on it was a halter dress!!!!!!!!
that's 10. halter dress
and 11. was another secret pair of earrings he bought from korea (without me knowing) 12. ALOT of bangles.. (for me to choose which to go with the dress) 13. make up....!! eye shadow palette and gold dust powder... 14. necklace 15. purple clutch ( DAMN NICE!! to go with the dress) 16. shoes from pedro!! OMG!!
so after being so princessy... we caught the play...
and returned to the car... and went bugis to shop for awhile.. went to check if kino had breaking dawn... but so sad dun have....
we returned to the car. he said we're going for dinner...
17. DINNER at a SUPER NICE PLACE!! (thanks henry for introducing the place!!), it's called my secret garden at sculpture square.
so we ordered our food, and he asked if i wanted tea.. so i said ok since i'm a tea lover.. and he ordered tea too (to my surprise).. but didnt take too much notice.. the waiter came in with couple mugs and i was thinking to myself.. this restaurant is damn cute...
after the waiter left.. he asked me to lift the cup up and look underneath.. it has the number 18 on it...
OMG!!!!
18. couple mugs
we had, fried calamari, cream of pumpkin, escagots, mushroom ravioli, oxtail, spagetti with crayfish, lycheenee, draft beer, 2 tea and a triple choc cake with a candle! =D
and 19. was a heart shaped ice-cream cake!!!! frm swensens... awww... but he cannot take it out, the restaurant didnt allow..
so he passed me the cake outside...
den... 20. was a choice.. log ride or songs of the seas from sentosa.. or movie (he's just not that into you).. but it was too late for everything and we decided to just walk around vivo abit...
i went into mintmark and co. to show him a charm bracelet watch tat i always wanted... and i told him nt to get it...
den shopped abit...
went back to the car.. actually headin over to wala wala to meet his frens for drinks... den we forgot the cake needed the freezer so we rushed home and put the cake in the freezer...
in the car.. he took out present 21...
which had me tearing and tearing cause i was too happy...
21. a charm bracelet watch frm fossil!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and yea.. we headed home and he was too tired he fell asleep.... after we figured how to play balderdash..
22nd feb.. we went to his place... after meeting cpt james to get his testimonial... went out in the afternoon.. to plaza sing, bought tickets for movie (number 20 fulfilled) for a 8plus show at tamp mall.. den shopped and ate...
went home, had dinner.. rushed to tamp mall.. watched movie and realised.. i dunno hw to drive home alone!! so poor him had to drive me back.. (totally defeating the purpose to watch at tm)... and he cabbed back to camp...
=D
i had the BEST GREATEST bday celebration.. thank you cong.. i love you...
and of course... making use of the best of moods.. i laid down my rules a.k.a birthday requests.. to make him more or less.. someone who'll i'll love more... and to be fair.. i also stated wad i'll change... =D
15:01
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
my friend said....
"if an apple is 70% rotten and 30% good.. will u still eat it or throw it away?"
oh wells...
i dunno.. haha.. guess relationships and apples are 2 VERY VASTLY different things to me..
anyway.. blast! is a killer.. i am dumb.. slow.. and whatever.. i cannot catch my steps.. vetting today was screwed and i am sorry!!
oh well.. They say we SUCK.. (but seriously is it THAT bad?) sometimes i feel They dont have to be THAT erm.. FIERCE.. and in their term, "POWERFUL?"
it's enough they're driving us to dance from 6 to 1140pm and more or less.. plus some of us have additional practices ourselves.. AND there're people who stay at tampines, so if we end at 1140, she's to CAB home.. and it's F***ing ex.. while They can sleep in their bf's room or whatever.. oh well..
trying to understand from their point of view.. they're stressing too because we may be the OPENING ITEM!!! WAH........... scary.. and K said to me.. "be happy u are not in the opening item.." now after vetting.. i maybe!! OMG..
and for EMCC - Exxon Mobil Campus Concert... It's FREE ADMISSION!!!!! =D
come come come k???? =D
11th feb!! YAY!
22:01
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
SAGITTARIUS - The Promiscuous One Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. A loner most of the time. Loses patience easily and will not take crap. If in a bad mood stay FAR away. Gets offended easily and remembers the offense for ever . Loves deeply but at times will not show it, feels it is a sign of weakness. Has many fears but will not show it. VERY private person. Defends loved ones will all their abilities. Can be childish often. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to ever yone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in bed..!!! Not the kind of person you want to mess with- you might end up crying.
hahaha! damn funny.. quite true le.. hahahaha!!
lets see mine...
PISCES - The Partner for Life Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. Messy at times and irresponsible! Smart but lazy. High appeal. Has the last word. Good to find, hard to keep. Passionate, wonderful lovers. Fun to be around. Too trusting at times and gets hurt easily. Lover of animals. VERY caring, make wonderful nurses or doctors. They always try to do the right thing sometimes get the short end of the stick. They sometimes get used by others and hurt because of their trusting. Extremely weird but in a good way. Good Sense of Humor!!! Thoughtful. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet. Good friend to other but need to be choosy on who they allow their friends to be.
hahaha!! true true...
01:06
Thursday, January 15, 2009
ok.. no fate to post the blog i just typed.. but yea..
was just saying i realised tat i didnt make any new year resolutions!!! hahaha!!
and.. that 2008 wasnt too bad considering i got into NUS and that i made alot of friends and cong's 21st was a success!! Plus.. a few days before the year ended.. we went to korea TOGETHER!! yay.. but other than that.. there's nothing much to comment about.. haha!! hw pathetic I KNOW.
let's just hope 2009 will become a much better year.. =)
22:03
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
no no i havent been MIA-ing.. it's just i've been too lazy to blog!!! hahaha!!
after my taiwan trip.. we went to korea on the 26th... YES YES WE!!! me and cong!! yay!!!
IT WAS SUPER HAPPENING!!
I am supposed to reach the airport at 8pm.. we were deciding whether to go or not at 5pm after a movie... and when we finally decided... we;d to rush down to raffles place.. (mind u it was PEAK hour) and the office closes at 6pm!!! ok.. we finally found the office at 615 and LUCKILY it wasnt closed yet.. got the ticket, rushed back to his house at whampoa.. to pack his luggage and rushed back to my house to get my stuffs den my dad drove at 140km/h to reach the airport at 815pm where my whole bunch of customers were waiting for me.
HAHAH!!! how happening is tat??!! i cannot believe it.. oh la la la!!!!
we'd so so so much fun there.. just sometimes he felt a little out of place.. haha!!
i'll post pictures next post..
we came back.. spent time together.. he was D A M N sweet.. all the way from korea till now.. oh wells...
school started.. plus dance practises are driving me nuts........ EMCC concert is on the 11th!! and i'm rusty like HELL... shit shit..
i just bidded for the modules i wanted.. just bid.. i nv even plan my timetable like hw i did previous sem.. dunno wad got into me..
well.. i'm going to admit it.. i miss yuyyang, i miss cath.. i miss gary and tricia and sam and kevin and valencia and laopo and angela and alvin and teck and celeste and michelle and cheeky and kate and rachel and michele and cyan and the list goes on and on and on...
i miss hanging out with u all.. i miss everything... sigh~
13:40
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
funny how i am feeling is also reflected in alot of other fren's blog..
sigh...
if only the we bother spilling things out to each other.. den maybe the same people on the same boat can come together and be GREAT FRIENDS!!! muahahahaha!!
i miss camps.. i miss hanging out and enjoying their company.. i miss talking nonsense and laughing and feel I MATTER as a friend.. or rather that.. I AM IMPORTANT to them..
sigh..
15:30
yes yes.. i'm back from taiwan!! =D it was a great trip.. i mean.. as compared to my previous taiwan trips and japan trips. i felt this was quite a good one because i earned more, made more friends and the customers were quite understanding and the guides and drivers were NICE!!! =D
however.. i realised a big distance between close friends an i.. before exams till after exams there wasnt much hanging out and stuffs.. suddenly.. feel so lonely.. so shameless.. contacting everyone.. like.. why dont ppl contact me instead? =(
and there're those few.. who.. i kept contacting.. cuz if i dont.. i feel.. they somehow disappaeared..
whatever happened to close friends? whatever happened to people i can rely on? whatever happened to the few new close friends i have who put smiles and laughters into my life?
do they only exist in school? because when i try to ask them out.. they say they're busy with work.. but they've time for others..
they seem to have disappeared..
i feel PATHETIC.. or rather.. i am pathetic.. sigh~
00:30
Tuesday, December 02, 2008
oh wells.. after so much planning and stressing and carrying and splurging like nobody's business!!!! his 21st bday was a
BLAST!!!!!! YIPPIE!!!!
so so so... we 2 poor love birds checked into the chalet on friday afternoon.. unloaded a CAR-LOAD of food, drinks, barangbarangs and stayed in the chalet.. after that, we went to marine parade to shop for more stuffs because that birthday boy felt there were not enough food.. so yea..
the whole feeling was so like, moving into our own house!!! damn shiok can??
and after we got back, he helped me sweep and mop the entire bungalow, while i unpacked and stayed in the kitchen until 9pm when xiao niang re starts!!
after walking around.. we went to bed early since we were expecting to stay up late the next night..
when we woke up.. made breakfast, had lunch and guests starts coming in while we drove out to get bbq food from BBQWholesale and his cake! (thanks to laopo's dad.. the cake was DAMN NICE CAN?? =D)
and guests streamed in starting from 1pm... they were still coming in at 11 plus 12am le.. LOL...
after that it was makan and makan and drink and drink..
the cake cutting session was crazy!! i suddenly realised the amount of people who were there.. and the singing of the birthday song.. woah~~~~ damn HIGH!! and the poppers!!! and throwin raynor into the pool.. hahaha! damn funny.. twice somemore and push me in somemore!!! WTH!!
THANKS TO EVERYONE WHO TURNED UP!!!! u all made every single effort and every single cent worth while!!! =D
yay yay yay!! he was damn happy la.. =D
14:02
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
THREE DOWN.. 2 more!!!!
and his chalet this weekend!! omg... went to Giant to check out the prices and decided to get one trolley load of things which amounted to 189.88!!! and sad to say.. it's only the drinks and the wad not la!!!! OMG!!!
erm.. why i went to Giant because i wanted to go chill.. supposed to meet qiu, meiyee, gary, and another gary to go chill.. IN THE END ALL PS ME!!! and i sat inside harbourfront mrt, dunno whether to board the train or not cuz no one wanna confirm with me go where!! so i sat inside smsing them while i watch 8 trains COME AND GO!
FREAKING EMO LA!!!
oh wells.. guess being alone is THE BEST!!! angry liao!!
hmmphf!
just wanted to go chill after exams so hard la... sigh~
in the end, went home to watch xiao niang re.. ou xuan is pretty but she.. got qian da face! hahahahaha!! oops! and the show has SO MANY ACTORS/ACTRESSES la!! =D and the start got NAT HO!!! YAY!!! SO SHUAI!! and the jap guy also SO SHUAI!!!! wah...... =D happy!!
10:28
Thursday, November 20, 2008
just heard smth from my dad.. omg.. i cannot believe the family i thought that was the best sucks like nobody's business..
come on.. i've heard enough of all the backstabbing you do/did/will continue doing, all the ugly, ugly, secretive, things you do and hide and the lies you're capable of.. the jealousy you harbour and the many many many other negative things you do.. my god! are u even human??? why the hell do i have u in my family? why are u even my relative? why do u even exist??
and worst!! this person mentioned above is NOT THE ONLY ONE!!! WTF!! YES!! WTF!!
i've made up my mind, i'll either ask ASA to put me overseas during xmas (when there's a faimly chalet) or.. i'll go somewhere with someone, either friends or cong..
I DONT NEED SUCH A FAMILY.. seriously..
a family is one that is there when everything go wrong, not something that makes everything go wrong.. a family is one that people dont need to hide, they can just be themselves, not something that makes everyone a hypocrite with smiles that are so fake they look worst than the Joker from Batman himself.. a family loves everyone and treats everyone fairly, always want the best for the people around them, not something that puts you down, gets jealous of what you have, looks down on you, backstabs you, sabotage you, etc etc etc.. a family is one that you can tell the truth to and know nobody will be judgemental towards you, not something that you lie and lie and lie and be afraid to let anyone know because they'll eventually kill you with their judgemental look..
i've th family that is in my above paragraph, i named it SOMETHING, a thing that is so dead, unfeeling, scary and so terrible, i've got nothing more to say..
i'll work hard, this is my new motivation, to save my parents from this crazy family.. we dont need to car nor the maid nor the family. we just want a SIMPLE, CAREFREE and most importantly, LOVING family.. a family with LOVE, not HATRED..
i'm sure we can all do better than what it is now..
and yes... I AM NOT OK.. so please do not ask what happen..
for our own family members reading this.. there're some quite very obvious ppl i'm talking about and you should know.. and if you think it is you, dont worry, it's not. because i wont be stupid to post bad things bout you here if i know you'l visit my blog.. lol! i've better things to do than to generate more scoldings and hatred.. LOL.. if u're reading this post, means u have access to my blog, means i still love you.. =)
22:53
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
TS pract down..
5 more to go!!!
JIAYOU EVERYONE!! =D
19:44
Sunday, November 16, 2008
wad did I do... to deserve ALL THESE?
12:19
Friday, November 14, 2008
hmmm... after my previous post...
i realised and observed EVEN MORE happenings that.... further proves that my blogspot is so darn true!!
